I've never been able to cope well with suspense or waiting. I get anxious and jumpy. My stomach gets upset, my throat gets sore. I start pacing, I talk faster than normal, I'm unable to concentrate.
Sometimes practicing helps me calm down. The familiarity of taking my violin out of the case, rosining the bow, tuning, playing scales allows me to relax; having something to focus on, fix my attention to, can snap me out of the jittery state.
Sometimes I'm unable to focus on even that. Sometimes it isn't an option, like when I'm watching a movie. I can only watch movies with a friend narrating - I can't handle suspense without knowing what's going to happen, (and I have problems dealing with major emotional turmoil).
Maybe everyone deals with this.
But for now, the taxi that takes me to the airport is almost here, and my flight to Big City of Lights leaves in a few hours.
(Re: my theory final - the part I was worrying about ended up not being on there. I got an A+)
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