firsts

My freshman year of high school, I went away from home for the first time, for the four days of all-state orchestra. I played in my first full orchestra, playing Shostakovich 5 and Bernstein's Overture to Candide (second violin, inside), sat next to the first (and, so far, only) boy on whom I've had a serious crush. We said maybe two words to each other the first three days (he offered me a gummy bear, I accepted); the last day, he asked me for my email and phone number.

A year later, we met again, at all-state, this time playing I think it was Bartok Concerto for Orchestra. We spent the entire time together, and, a few days later, he became my first boyfriend. A few months after that, when he went off to college, I went off to summer camp, and we realized we'd never see each other again, we broke up.

This weekend, I went to a dance / party at the university that my school is kind-of-sort-of-maybe a part of. It wasn't very good, but a guy asked me to dance; I accepted. Eventually, we ended up making out, my first kiss.

Now he's calling me. I don't know what to do; he's not really my type and I feel embarrassed about the whole situation.

I'm playing Shostakovich 5 and Bernstein's Overture to Candide in the same program in my school's orchestra. I'm second violin, inside part.